try2bebeautiful ([info]try2bebeautiful) wrote,
@ 2006-06-14 21:30:00
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Current location:room
Current mood: guilty
Current music:wish you were here-radiohead version

food:
1 whole weat waffle (90)
1 water bottle
1 small piece of salmon (50)
1 cup applesauce (100)
4 small latkes (200) yikes
1 cookie (80 cals) bad bad bad
1 water bottle
1 water bottle
vegetable lomein (100)
2 dixie cups (200) badbadbadbadbadbad

TOTAL = 820

horrribleeeeeee
wayyyyyy too many cals
yuck yuck yuck
im gross
i want to purge
i cant purge
i hafta stop binging
since i cant purge
bc then i will be fat
ahhhhhhhhhh
i cant wait till i start working
i wont be home all day
so i wont eat all day
yayyy =]
& ill be running around all day in the hot sun...which means i will be burning off lots of cals =]
im soo excited i cant wait
my math regents is tmm
i still havnt studied yet
why?
bc im dumbbbbbbbbb
bye lovelys<3


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[info]kt_will_b_thin
2006-06-15 02:37 am UTC (link)
sooo how is your plan going? wait what is your plan? are you just restricing cals or fasting or binging/purging? good luck in whatever you are doing...let me know if i can help out out at all. its nice to have support know matter what you are doing! :)

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[info]try2bebeautiful
2006-06-15 03:43 am UTC (link)
well i used to fast on & off & restrict cals
then i started binging & fasting
then i started binging & purging
then i just started purging no matter what i ate
soi decided to stop purging
its been a few days since my last purge
so now im just trying to restrict cals
i used to restrict to 200 cals..but im trying to overcome this whole e.d. & restrict to 800..even tho that still seems like way too many cals...but rly i just want to try to exercise & eat healthy
i want a healthy lifestyle back
thanks hun =]
same goes to you <3<3
wats ur plan?

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[info]kt_will_b_thin
2006-06-15 06:03 am UTC (link)
hey la la la ladyyy..i commented my stats on one of my other posts in my journal. right now i'm being pretty bad...i haven't eaten more than 150 cals in a day in almost 2 weeks. i know i know! but i just have no urge or heart to eat anymore. its just depressing...sigh. be glad you aren't full blown ana...at least food doesn't remind you of every bad situation in your life. I can't look at it or smell it without crying or looking at myself and critisizing. Its like a trigger in my brain...when I see it...every bad memory rushes up. I guess when i was younger something inside of me decided that blaim needed to be put on something for all the pain i went through. and outwardly...food was the worst enemy. Making me ugly and hate myself more...even after just one meal. the meals got smaller and smaller...but my pain didn't. I know this sounds sad...but...when my stomach feels empty inside...i feel like i have control..but basically i just don't have the energy to be sad.

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[info]try2bebeautiful
2006-06-15 07:36 pm UTC (link)
aw i kno how you feel =[
im like that sometimes
i rly used to be like that..i was full blown ana
but recently...just this year..i started the whole binging thing & purging
i hate it
id rather just not eat
i used to hav no desire for food
i hate food..its my enemy too
but lately ive been looking to it for comfort..& binging a lot...bc i dont rly hav any other comfort
& then it just makes me feel worse
so yea i dont even kno i wish i just had a healthy relationship with food
i rly just wish i accepted myself & loved myself
when i can do that then i think my e.d. will go away
but its guna be a long time till i can be happy with who i am

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[info]anonymonomous
2006-06-15 06:58 am UTC (link)
ech... I did poorly today too. Almost 1000... I had some low cal healthy food... but then I blew it on sweets...

well... tomorrow's a new day... no? come on... we can do it together! No more binges! *hug*

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[info]try2bebeautiful
2006-06-15 07:37 pm UTC (link)
yea thats wat i do too
i start off rly well
& then at the end of the day i ruin it bc of my sweet tooth
yes tmms a new day
we can do it!!
=D

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[info]boxfish
2006-06-15 08:04 pm UTC (link)
eat celery, 'cos, celery is yummy and has only 17 cals. it keeps you full and it's mostly water AND takes more than 17 calories to chew and digest!

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[info]try2bebeautiful
2006-06-15 10:33 pm UTC (link)
thanks =]

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